Are You There Freud? It’s Me, Mushra.

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So, in my dream last night, from what I can remember, I had quite the audience. It seemed like my boyfriend and I were taking some sort of class on sex toys–in some odd house I’ve never been in, but that I can assume was his parents for reasons I’ll mention later–and it was our turn to try out this new thing that straps around your chest and is supposed to feel good. First he tried it on me, then i tried it on him.

Fastforward to what seems like a blur of things that I can’t remember, but I’m pretty much naked and so is he. We were looking into each other’s eyes like we used to when we first started dating, my hand resting gently on his cheek, and then I notice a cut in the shape of a 7 on the right side of his throat. When I ask him about it, he says it’s nothing. We start making out, and that’s when we hear his mother in the kitchen complaining about money, a loan that she had taken out for school that somehow went terribly wrong and now she owes a lot of money. She starts yelling at his siblings, telling them to put certain things in certain areas, and then she starts yelling at us to stop what we’re doing because she raised her children all wrong. That’s when my boyfriend tells her that we’re practicing safe sex. This only upsets her more and makes her think that she really has raised her children wrong, which I remember confusing the me in my dream because I already know that safe sex is important.

She ends up walking away, still shouting, and I notice my boyfriend’s father trying to calm her down. They disappear somewhere. My boyfriend and I are still sharing our romantic moment when we hear from the other room that everything is going to be fine. That it was a mistake. My boyfriend and I then start to make our way up the stairs when I stop and notice that his mother is taking everyone somewhere special. First his young sister runs by in a onsie, and then I see his young baby sibling of no specific gender pushing her own stroller. From beneath the baby pops out his young brother saying, “Hahah. I got you. You thought they could push their own stroller,” and then he runs off. All of them were wearing onsies. My boyfriend only has two younger sisters in real life, and no brother (that I know of).

This is when I wake up the first time. But then I go back to sleep, and it’s still in the same dream, except now we’re at the hotel I suppose we had headed upstairs to pack for. It’s my boyfriend’s birthday and I wanted to do something special for him that we couldn’t do with all those people in the house. Sex, obviously.

One thing I noticed on the table beside the couch in the hotel room was a stack of business cards from my sister and my dad. I remember thinking it was weird to be seeing those in this dream. I’m also pretty sure I was lucid dreaming for most of both of these dreams because I had thoughts on the dream as they happened, could rewind and reply and change certain aspects. I’ll get to it soon.

The next scene is of the two of us wrapped up in soft white bedspread, smiling, laughing, having a good time, but not yet naked. We start making out and undressing, and then I turn around and stick my booty out as an offering and I tell him, “Cause I never let you, but it’s your birthday.” Don’t worry, I’m not taking about anal. My boyfriend has this weird obsession with wanting to look at my butt, but I never let him. So in the dream, I did. So far, there isn’t a tattoo. I’ll get to that soon also.

It’s around this point where my brother and sister can be heard from downstairs–sounded like they were playing around on razors–and I know that they’re going to come in. They do burst in and my boyfriend and I are embarrassed. And then I stop, rewind, and try to fix it. Same thing happens again, but this time with just my brother popping in. Stop, rewind, and then it’s really fixed. My underwear comes off, my boyfriend and I start getting a little more physical, and then he squeezes my butt in a way that makes me laugh. I forget to mention that there are mirrors on the walls–though not covering them–and my boyfriend is recording everything on a camera for some reason. Both of these things I didn’t look up in the dream dictionary because they didn’t seem essential to me at any point while rethinking about the dream.

Anyway, I start laughing, he continues to tickled me, and I can see in the mirror where the is touching. “Is it right where it says…COLLEGE!” he says and tickled me on the bullet-list tattooed on the inner-bottom-right cheek of my butt, more specifically, the bullet-point that reads “college.”

After this playful little scene, we can cut right to a sex scene. And then I wake up.

This dream, while one that I would consider pretty good, yet odd, made me decide that there were too many small things that caught my eye while I was watching myself dream it that I needed to look up the meaning of them all. These were my results:

Cut

To dream that you have a cut suggests that you are being let down or being undermined. Alternatively, it refers to feminine sexuality and feminine attitudes toward sex. 

To dream that someone else is being cut suggests that you are trying to understand this person on some level. You want them to open up to you.

To see cut marks on a wall refers to your desires to break free from some obligation or relationship.

Neither of these definitions really applied quite exactly to what I witnessed in my dream, but I decided to join them all together. I didn’t have the cut, my boyfriend did; it wasn’t happening in front of me, it had already happened; skin could be considered the wall of your body. Mixing the three together also made quite a lot of sense. Yes, I agree with them.

Money

Alternatively, dreaming about money refers to your attitudes about love and matters of the heart. It is a common symbol for sexuality and power. In particular, finding money indicates your quest for love or for power.

To dream that you lose money suggests that you are lacking ambition, power and self-esteem. You are experiencing unhappiness and setbacks in your waking life. You may also be feeling weak, vulnerable, and out of control in your waking life.

To give or spend money in your dream is analogous to giving love.  You are looking for love. To see others giving money away suggests that you are feeling ignored, overlooked or neglected. Someone is not paying enough attention and showing enough affection toward you.

To dream that you have no money indicates a fear of losing your place in the world. You are lacking the abilities needed to achieve some desired goal. If you are borrowing money in your dream, then it suggests that you are overextending your resources. You are spreading yourself too thin.

Technically speaking, the money aspect of the dream didn’t really have anything to do with the me in the dream. But let’s assume that some of the other characters in my dream were projections of me in some way. My boyfriend’s mother was the one worried about money. She had found money (definition 1), but then she seemed to have lost it and therefore had no money (definition 2 & 4), the money was meant to be spent on school (definition 3). Again, none of these definitions applied quite so tightly to the situation in my dream, but loosely they all worked, and I agree with each meaning in my own life translated to me through the dream.

Loan

To dream that you need a loan signifies your worries over money matters. Alternatively, the dream is telling you that it is okay to ask for help and lean on the support from friends and family. You may be too self-reliant and that you can do it all.

Read section above for reference to Loan. Still applies.

Hotel

To see a hotel in your dream signifies a new state of mind or a shift in personal identity. You are undergoing some sort of transition and need to move away from your old habits and old way of thinking. You need to temporarily escape from your daily life. Alternatively, the dream may imply a loss in your personal identity.

Yes, and yes. I agree with both versions of this definition.

House

To see a house in your dream represents your own soul and self. Specific rooms in the house indicate a specific aspect of your psyche. In general, the attic represents your intellect, the basement represents the subconscious, etc. If the house is empty, then it indicates feelings of insecurity. If the house is shifting, then it suggests that you are going through some personal changes and changing your belief system. To dream that a house has no walls represents a lack of privacy. You feel that everyone is looking over your shoulder or up in your business.

To dream that you are inside a stranger’s house indicates that there is something that you have yet to discover about yourself. It may mean that there are repressed memories, fears or emotions that you are not confronting.

To see a new house in your dream indicates that you are entering into a new phase or new area in your life.You are becoming more emotionally mature. 

The house was pretty full, there were walls, but it was also an open sort of structure. The house wouldn’t necessarily belong to a stranger, but it’s definitely a house I have no recollection of seeing in my waking life before. Therefore, could wither be a “stranger’s house” or a “new house.” I agree with both definitions.

Sex

To dream about sex refers to the integration and merging of contrasting aspects of yourself. It represents psychological completion. You need to be more receptive and incorporate aspects of your dream sex partner into your own character. Consider the nature of the love-making. Was it passionate? Was it slow? Was it wild? The sex act parallels aspects of yourself that you wish to express. A more direct interpretation of the dream may be your libido’s way of telling you that it has been too long since you have had sex. It may indicate repressed sexual desires and your needs for physical and emotional love. If you are looking for a place to have sex, then the dream may be analogous to your search for intimacy and closeness. You want to rekindle some relationship. If you dream of having sex in a public place, then the dream implies that others are talking about your private relationship.

To dream about sex with someone other than your spouse or significant other suggests dissatisfaction with the physical side of your relationship. On the other hand, it may be harmless fantasy. In such situations, you may find that you are less inhibited sexually. Perhaps you need to bring the same sense of adventure into your existing relationship.

Sex Toy

To see or use a sex toy in your dream suggests that you are feeling unsatisfied in some area of your life, which may or may not relate to sex. There is a void in your life. Alternatively, the dream may be a play on words and that you are not taking sex seriously. Perhaps you have an immature attitude towards sex. More directly, the dream indicates your desires for a more gratifying and/or exciting sex life.

Tattoo

To dream that you have tattoos represent your sense of individuality and the desire to stand out in a crowd. You want to be unique and different from everybody else, particularly if you do not have any tattoos in real life. Consider also what the tattoo is and what significance it has in your life. It may represent something that has left a lasting impression on you. Alternatively, to dream that you have a tattoo suggests that a waking situation or decision is having a much longer lasting effect that you had expected. 

List

To dream that you are making a list suggests that you are worried about a problem or situation in your waking life.

I wasn’t actually making lists. The list had already been made in the form of a tattoo right on my ass. This definition still applies and I agree with it.

Sibling

To see your sibling in your dream indicates unresolved issues with your sibling or unresolved issues from your childhood that needs to be confronted. Consider their actions in your dream and how it may be a reflection of your own self and your character.

To see someone else’s sibling(s) in you dream represents a quality or characteristic of that sibling that you need to incorporate and acknowledge within yourself. 

My siblings in the dream seemed to be acting younger than they actually are, so I would agree with the second part of the first definition. As for the short glimpse of my boyfriend’s nonexistent dream siblings, not entirely sure how to read that one even after the definition since it was so brief, but perhaps I need to learn how to be a bit more childish in a playful sense. Keep the kid in me alive.

Business Card

To dream that you are handing out your business card indicates that you need to make more connections and expand your network. in order to be successful, you need to reach out.

I wasn’t passing out the business cards, they were just left on a table and they didn’t belong to me. It’s probably true that I need to expand myself more in order to  be successful though since I do tend to be pretty closed off.

Bedspread

To notice or buy bedspread in your dream represents your open sexuality and outward beauty. The design and look of the bedspread may be a clue into what you are looking for sexually.

The bedspread was white.

White

White represents purity, perfection, peace, innocence, dignity, cleanliness, awareness, and new beginnings. You may be experiencing a reawakening or have a fresh outlook on life. Alternatively, white refers to a clean, blank slate. Or it may refer to a cover-up. In Eastern cultures, white is associated with death and mourning. 

 

Now you have the definitions. Read into it what you would like. I know what this dream was telling me, and I heard it pretty loud and clear. It was definitely dreamt for a reason.Image